Insidious: In-sid-i-ous, adjective. The gradual progression of something usually ending in a bad outcome. Working in a hidden or usually injurious way. Subtle poison, pernicious cunning.

Systemic Racism: Is composed of intersecting, overlapping and co-dependent racist institutions, policies, practices, ideas and behaviors that give an unjust amount of resources, rights and power to white people while denying them to people of color. White Supremacy!

Laboriously I write! In pathetic depravity I despondently opine, chest-fallen, disheartened, unable to raise my head to glimpse the light. Such is my disgruntled demeanor. Aren’t we all, so say we all! This Covid-19 thing is “Insidious,” and weathering. Perhaps I should use the word wither or whether, one is a question and the other is how shall I proceed? Ought I to use wearing away, the attrition of our spirits.

A new word added to the American jargon, Covid, the mere word makes me peevish, crabby, and sullen. Oh! But can’t you see my ill demeanor in my words? When will the angst end? Angst is short for anguish if you have a mind to appreciate words as I do. Alas! The prattling’s of an impudent soul.

Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do, you apologize for the truth. Benjamin Disrael

I am disagreeing with the Democratic Far Left claim that there is systemic racism in our police departments. Of course, there is racism, as well as bias and bigotry everywhere around us in our everyday lives, but it is not systemic. (my opinion) I have prejudices as do most people, but hardly hatred.

Reason is the natural order of truth; but imagination is the organ of meaning. C. S. Lewis

I deem that the black community is often afforded some amenities not offered to whites. Affirmative Action helps blacks get jobs over whites, helps them gain admissions into prominent universities without meeting standards. President Johnson did a lot for the black community, but he also made them dependent. The Black Community evolved into an intercity minority society. They have learned to game the system and it has become generational. (My opinion)

Of course, this is not standard but what we are talking about here are big cities and their minorities. Fatherless children, unwed mothers, foster care grandmothers, welfare dependence, no skills, no jobs, high school dropouts, drug culture, wanting to be a gangster! It is a brutal environment and it is in no way your fault(nor mine)

Who do you blame then? Intelligent caring parents break that cycle and get out of that culture, offering their children hope. Those that leave that culture do well in American society. We had a black President, black congressmen and women, celebrities, etc. etc. IT IS NOT OUR FAULT! I am not a racist and I have not owned a slave neither have my ancestors going back four generations. Yes, if you look back far enough then every nation on Earth has had slavery in their histories. Reparations is absolute nonsense. We cannot be made to pay for what some people did 150 to 250 years ago. The north had slaves as well, it was not just a southern thing.

Truth is by nature self-evident. As soon as you remove the cobwebs of ignorance that surround it, it shines clear. Mahatma Gandhi

I am watching the memorialization of John Lewis on TV. Even these solemn proceedings irk me to some extent. It just seems the news cycle exploit such events to the nth degree. This is the fifth day that I have witnessed little else except this man’s legacy and internment. I respected the man and he was my Masonic Brother. He was true to himself and his cause and he had the scars. I held him in esteem even though I am a Conservative. Look to the East My Brother! I heard that his common expression upon greeting someone was “How you are doing my Brother(sister)?” Was it Christian or Masonic? “Getting into good trouble” was another of his metaphors.

I listened in earnest as Presidents George Bush, Bill Clinton, and Barack Obama eulogized Congressman John Lewis. I even felt Nancy Pelosi’s heart felt love for the man. But I cringed as the Reverend Bernice King gave her tirade about how evil America was and its systemic racism. I do not agree with her, but I understand why some blacks do. I love my country and I do not like to hear her disparaged.

I also got irritated when President Obama got political and opined about voter rights. What is wrong with going to your precinct, showing your picture ID and casting a ballot? With early voting it will not be crowded. If you can go to the grocery store, then you can go vote. Who wants all that chaos with “Mail-in ballots”? We need to know who wins that night(November 3rd) instead of a month later. Just imagine ballot harvesting and lost ballot boxes turning up late as they always do. If you desire to vote by mail, then request a ballot be sent you. None of this door to door stuff with pets and dead people casting ballots. Insanity!

If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible,all things. Rene Descartes

I am angry with what I see on the news. I feel that America is angry as well, regardless of their political party. What we see in the nightly news should make every American unsettled. The looting, the burning, the chaos, the assault on police officers trying to do their jobs. The public authorities letting their cities burn because of their political party’s platform. Do not be misled, these democratic mayors and governors are taking their orders from the DNC. Anything to unseat President Trump in November even if it means letting the anarchist burn their cities to the ground.

“In any free society, the conflict between social conformity and individual liberty is permanent, unresolvable and necessary” By Kathleen Norris, Novelist and Columnist, 1880 to 1966

The government cannot make me eat liver(yet), neither can they prevent me from going to church(assembly), but they have. They cannot prevent me from opining (free speech) but they have. (hate speech & censure). They have prevented us from holding the hand of a love one as they pass nor attending that loved one’s funeral. Our government has ordered us to be sheep; being herded toward a shear shed or slaughter. Why do we so readily accept edicts from our bureaucratic elite?

In the above quote it is answered: We conform to a civilized society and to its norms, but I am (you may not be) conflicted by my rights being curtailed. So, basically there is no resolution. I conform and adapt due to my being congenial (Ha!) and having common sense and respect for others, but I abhor being a subject. I am a predator and I am angry; I want to fight. I want to confront one of those rioters, that arsonist, that looter, that person throwing rocks or flashing lasers at the police and lock up (fight)with that person. I want to grapple with him and give him or her an attitude adjustment. I want to shake him until his or her teeth rattle. I want to ask them pointedly “Just what do you want?”

It is not about George Floyd or racial prejudices or biases anymore. What is your intention? To overthrow our government and institute a socialistic society? To create a Utopian Nirvana where everyone is equal, and your life is idyllic.To somehow mandate equality so as to have a free classless society. You are pretty much an idiot if you think that way. Why? Because there are things called ambition and intelligence, a drive to be successful. To be just a little better than your peers, to excel in our endeavors. To grab the gold ring! Nobody owes you anything, you have to earn it! These rioters are nothing more than young white Marxist who have been brainwashed by our liberal progressive academia.

I will make some assessments: The police do not wake up every morning with the sole purpose of persecuting a black person. Are the police more cautious around black people, especially young adult males? Yes! Why? Because of experience. From answering calls in those intercity ghettos where crime is rampant. From dealings with drug dealers in those same neighborhoods. From seeing the abuse and brutal nature of those neighborhoods. If you do not break the law, then you will never have a problem with the police.

Every black person I have ever questioned about this topic say the same thing; “that they have never been harassed by the police personally but have heard of other blacks being abused by the police.” I believe this enigma is an urban legend circulated among black communities until it is believed as fact. (My opinion) The FBI statistics bear this out. Three times as many whites are killed by police officers than blacks. Same idiocy in Vietnam, Blacks believing blacks were sacrificed on the front lines and more of them were being killed than whites. It was proven false but still they believed the false narrative. It circulates among black communities and is believed as fact.

I cannot comprehend a city like Portland, Oregon, letting these riots continue unabated for months. Those rioters are trying to burn down and destroy the Federal Courthouse and the Democratic City officials are refusing to aid the Federal Enforcement officers protecting it. (Crazy!) These rioters are criminals, looters, and arsonist. Damn the liberal progressive democrats, they are insane. You let your hate for Trump destroy your city. This word perfectly defines their behavior: “Insidious” The mayor has prevented the city police from aiding the besieged Federal Marshals. I believe the Governor is now going to send in the Oregon State Troopers to curb the violence. The mayor is even providing food and portlets to the rioters. It is unconscionable to me!

If the Democratic Party continues to facilitate these rioters and anarchist, then they will inherit a storm. If they think all this chaos aids them politically and lets it continue until November, then I fear it will be the end of the America I know. The Democratic Party will proceed to try and squash the chaos if they win and restore order. But Alas! It will be too late because the Democrats supported their behavior. The Democrats will subsequently have to meet their demands. (surrender or else) It will resemble a revolution because these Far-Left Idealist will not go quietly. Sadly, these rioters now own the Democratic Party and the result will be the Democratic Party succumbing to their socialist demands. Thus, the Democrats will let Capitalism (our way of life) die in America. America will then inherit the disease of Pseudo Socialism. Be careful what you wish for, you may get it and it will not be anything you imagined.

O Lord my GOD! When I in awesome wonder, consider all the worlds thy hands have made.

I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder, thy power throughout the world displayed.

When through the woods and forest glades I wander,and hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.

When I look down from lofty mountain grandeur and hear the brook and feel the gentle breeze.

Then sings my soul, my Savior God to thee, how great Thou art, how great thou art!

Methodist Hymn by Stuart K Hine, 1953